Coco Chanel celebrating her new year's eve with a brand new pair of boots
While the world out there was getting excited at fire works and the start of a new calendar year, I chose to spend the last day of 2007 in the company of my pony blowing bubbles in the air and watching his perplexed body language at those floating short-life sparkling round object flying around.
He hates them.
I thought for a very long time of resolutions for the new year, it's what everyone does for new years, non? After many days of pondering upon the question I decided to submit to the fact that I have none. No resolutions whatsoever. There are no fundamental changes that I desire to incorporate into my life now. Intrinsically, I feel "at bay", that aura of peace of mind stemming from knowing that you're being the best person you can be & welcoming opportunities -no matter how small- for self-development. Extrinsically, there's that profound sense of satisfaction with my surroundings: I love my job even though I know that my full potential cannot be realized at my current post just yet, it nonetheless adds so much to me as an individual & as part of my community. I am also grateful for being here, in this part of the world, I think this is an exciting time to be around with the amount of economical growth & the strain that puts on the need for equal effort into developing the minds and psyches of humans to match that growth.
Growing up with a system in place is very different than growing up with the system & having the opportunity to create, and develop that setting. I grew up in a very military oriented family where my dad was and still is my greatest example and influence in my work ethic, he was amongst the few that created and assembled the very initial pillars holding the internal affairs of the newly united Emirates, I've always admired that fact that he had the opportunity to create something and make it sustainable for years to come, but I never thought that I as an individual would have the opportunity to be part of a development of that size -- The fact is, in my mind my father's silhouette is larger than life, so big that -in my mind- I never noticed the growing fixity of purpose inside of me. When the two of us have our unwinding talks in the evening as I place his feet on my lap to smother them with lotion and play chinese-reflexology-masseuse-wannabe, he's always that pillar of confidence that you know you can stretch your back against anytime and at any point of your life. From him I learned that each one of us has an opportunity to give back to that & those we love, and that if we look close -really close in our surroundings- we'd realize that an abundance of opportunities lie in the banks of self-driven efforts, because deep down in every human heart there is a hidden longing, a deep impulse and ambition to do something fine and enduring.
I <3 him.
Bearing in mind the vivacity of all that resides in my mind of which I've shared a little of above, why would I want to be anywhere else? I'm happy -very happy- with the the person I am today. I like it here,& this is where I reside, it is my home.
Nonetheless, there are less significant gaps that I'd like to bridge, if not in 2008 then sometime this lifetime. Namely they are:
+ Returning phone calls: People often have a better chance reaching me by email than phone, I often neglect my phone & forget it in the strangest places.. it would run out of battery & die and I wouldn't even notice. I don't enjoy telephone conversations, especially long ones, I prefer face-to-face contact but I do understand that it is difficult at times, especially in the presence of geographical limitations, which means that sometimes its okay to have long conversations, and it is always okay to have long phone calls at times of emotional crisis.
+ Ignore curious extroverted people at the gym? And if required, be rude. This point is rather absurd I have to admit, and unlike me {I'm polite, most of the time} but seriously, how many of you out there get this random person come speak to you or try to make a conversation just because they're occupying the treadmill next to you? I often make a point of lagging behind in answering questions pretending that my iPod screen is taking up all my attention, but apparently, some people just don't understand the need for solitude to others. I like going to the gym to exercise, for socializing I prefer doing that in parties and formal social settings.
+ Fresh Flowers: Somewhere over the past couple of years I fell short of sustaining my long-as-I-remember habit of surrounding my living space with fresh flowers regularly. This week I intend to pick up at least 5 white orchid plants, & beautify my space with fresh bouquets of Casablanca & Cala lilies. Does anyone sell large poofy pink peonies here?
+ Green crocodile birkin: I have a feeling, a strong feeling, that this year I'll be able to get the long sought crocodile Birkin bag. I decided that I will no longer wait for the Dubai boutique to charity one to me. I know, it's hard to imagine that any salesperson would make you beg for a purchase, especially when we're talking crocodile leather, but it is the truth, & I don't beg anyone. No one. Thus, I decided to list my name for a green *faints* crocodile birkin in US and Europe Hermes boutiques, and wait for it to arrive. I'll have it whenever I'm meant to have it =>
+ Experiment outside of my comfort zone: I elect not to elaborate more to this point, all I can say is "even destiny sometimes requires pushing"
& finally before I go, here's a japanese style happy new year wish from my friends to you =>
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